I had my first child in my mid 30’s, the baby was born into addiction, the next one as well. The pattern continued for the next 15 years, I experienced bouts of homelessness, took overdoses, slept in abandoned cars, ate food off the streets. I felt like a robot, I didn’t have a life, I was always a criminal or an addict.

It was only in December 2020 that I realised that things had to change. I have four kids now, they needed a dad and I needed to break the cycle of addiction that I was stuck in. I started a 12 step addiction programme, it was hard, I had to do it over Zoom, I went through withdrawal during the pandemic while also home schooling two of the kids, but it worked, it was better than any of the other programmes I had done but also this time I desperately wanted things to change.

After the 12 steps I was thinking about the future, a life of addiction leaves you with nothing, I was thinking about what I could do with the rest of my life when a friend mentioned the Providence Row peer mentoring programme, it is for people who have experienced homelessness or addiction but are in recovery, it helps to get you ready for work and gives you an accreditation. I jumped at the opportunity to do the course. I’ve always wanted to do outreach work, to help others, maybe support people in prison. I’ve got so much experience of addiction and homelessness and I really think I could use that for good to help others get out of black hole I was trapped in for so long.

I did the seven week mentoring programme and it was brilliant, a real game changer for me, every single bit of it was relevant to me. It was eye opening, it was so positive and opened my mind to the possibilities of what my life could be. Not only did it help me to reflect on how life had been but it gave me the tools I needed for the future. Addiction made me ignorant but this showed me I was teachable, it gave me focus and purpose. I feel free for the first time, I feel at peace.